some days..

i wish i could sleep though.

Today being one of them.

Vic fed every two hours from 11pm last night. while yes we co-sleep vic has never really cottoned onto feeding while laying down. so i still sit up and feed and then cuddle him after. the upside is it takes 20mins per-feed. not bad so i still get an hour and 20mins of sleep. but dj was up at 6:30am. DH made minmal effort to keep things quiet so i dosed from 6:30am until 8am. then i'm up for the day. DH got a shower in there and some odds and ends done. strangly not doing the dishes. Ohh and moving the clothes basket. not putting them away though.

FIL comes over after i have a shower and starts telling me to watch DJ doesn't grab vics eye. yep, i have my OWN eyes and deal with this. vic sleeps, i nick down the shops with DJ as DH and FIL are putting in a canara/fire box thingy. i come home to a very upset vic which means i have to take him out side when i bring in DJ - juggleing an 18 months old and a one month old isn't easy, esp. when walking though muddy puddles

FIL then goes on to tell DH and I that my lovely BIL and SIL (please understand the sarcasum there) are expecting a baby. the DAY BEFORE DJ's 2nd birthday. yay. NOT. i dont want him shareing birthdays (but if their baby chooses to come then, so be it) i shared my birthday with my grandmother and it wasn't always fun. my 18th was forgotten about my 21st was so/so but hey. thats 'cus its ME! any whoo i'm already stressed about what will be expected of me. you see i'm the "nice" once who lets all things "roll off my back like water off a ducks" i'll always support DH and his family. but TBH this time i will struggle. you see after DJ was born they didn't give us a card - why? DH didn't text them about the arrival of DJ - we both called our folks and let them have the plesure of telling every one. this time we called our folks and texted just about every one we could think of to let them know. and this time we got a card. but it wasn't worth the cardbord it was printed on. it was litterly the card sentiment then their names. no "Dear/to Dansta & DH" it was BLANK! ohh but it did have a date on it *rolleyes* and that to me was the biggest fucking slap on the face, i have remained amicable though all of the years of bullshit. and we're talking the near-er to 5 years of it. i asked them to dj's 1st birthday i asked them to my 21st and now THIS.

plus its not a huge help that dispite vic only being a month old im thinking about #3 already. yes, #3. DH has gone from "no never again" to maybe. and even threw in the condition that Vic is to be walking if we have #3.