venim splatter

soo its fathers day. it was a nice day for DH. his first fathersday with both our boys.

the splatter comes thank to my SIL and BIL. they really showed off their twattery skills today.

lemme pre-face by saying i know my SIL is not me and my BIL has long since burned bridges with DH.

Its fathers day so MIL arranged for us "all" (read DH, Me, DJ, Vic BIL and SIL) to come to their (MIL's) place for afternoon tea. noice. we where told to be there around 3. i did call MIL about 2:30 and tell her we'd be late as DJ was still asleep. we managed to get there at 3:45pm. not bad seeing as DJ woke up at 3:20. well FIL isn't there. i ask MIL if he was out getting pizzas. nope. he was at BIL's place 0_o ok. fair enough they're expecting their first baby. whats he doing? helping BIL fill the skip he hired...ON FRIGGIN FATHERS DAY!?!!? BIL asked for his help, rather then doing it ohh a weekend later. he did it on FATHERS DAY. twat. this is even more annoying (for me) as FIL is no spring chicken. he's nearer to 73 then 72. he's slowing down. BIL can't ask any of his friends for help. and as i said he's burned bridges with DH. SIL could help but thats doubtful. she's a small built women. but also the type who'd not help out as its 'mens' work. she's 18 weeks UTD. at 18 weeks i was up and down ladders (with BOTH boys) and helping DH move things. DH had to stop me doing things so i didn't hurt myself. but thats me. and im a much more phyiscal person then she is.
once they arrived at PIL's place DJ - as if on que- screamed! boy was a glad that happend. they got a shock (good!) and kind of took a step back. it took a while for me to 'show' vic to them as well quite frankly i was happy if they didn't see him. i cannot hide the contempt i hold them in after the fucking shitty excuess of a card they gave us for his birth. not even addressed to ANY FUCKING ONE. sorry, but after the hellish path i walked after his birth i derve a name on a fucking card. i pushed a 9lb6.5oz baby boy out of MY VAGINA in under two hours. that deserves some regignision. but nope. i showed them the photos we have. supprise supprise they flicked quick past the ones of SCN when vic had the IV line in his HEAD. and the photos we have of the CVC line. scary eh? but i got my own back - a short accont of the labour. think "AAAAAAAAAAARG -pop- " type thing. i didnt care. im hurt and im bloody angry at them. the disrespectful little fucking shits.

in 5 years they've slapped this face one too meany times. in 5 years i've been plaied out as the bad guy. for 5 fucking years i have sat by and not said anything for fear of hurting PIL. but now my ability to turn the other cheek is thinning. i will not stand for being disrespected by people who want to be close to my kids. i birthed them into this world so give me SOME respect or you'll see what lerks beneath this bubbly personality that seems to let it all 'slide on by' when i get arked up hevean help you. becuase hell sure as hell cant. i've pushed the line with them. yes. i've been to friendly for sure. but i have not once bitched about them. or said how they make me feel (other then to DH) the only times i have was 1) when BIl left a piss weak note about me and i turned my back on him - better then me getting stuck into him and 2) telling MIL that i was really hurt by that note and that it affected me. supprise supprise DH and I got engaged. ooo a month before they got married. opps didn't plan THAT one. twats. then i fall with DJ - anger out the ass hole there - moving faster then THEY did. we get married and birth DJ in to this world. then when DJ was 7 months old we fall with Vic, oppies, too fast again? i guess so. now they play games. get DJ a chrissie pressie last year, come to his 1st birthday but ignore my 21st and fail to write on a card for vics birth. hrrm i smell a rat. a rat called they want to be the 'best' aunt and uncle to my kids one issue with that. they need to get along with DH and ME. yep ME TOO. they aren't even known as aunt.S or uncle T. nope. they have done nothing to warrent that title. stupid, stupid people. i know i wont be an aunt to their child. i wont force it nor play stupid games. i will offer support as that is who i am. kick me when i'm down and i'll pull myself back up if a child is invlolved, not for my sake but for theirs. they are so pure children they dont know what a grudge is. why should i show them? they need help i'm there.

hopefully after their child is earth side safely they'll understand. but they'll still hold me in contempt of all things 'normal' but pfft. who wants normal? life in this nut house is better then anything they'd ever know!

Part of me thinks they're like this too because of the age differance between DH and I. nearer to 11 years. scary when you think about it. or when DH brings up something about "in 1990..." and i smile and say "yep. i was a year old!" they dont like this. mainly SIL. she's the kind of female who...for lack of a better description wants male attention but cannot seem to get it if there is another female within a bulls piss of her. she's quiet and kinda mouse like. me? im anything but- comming from me who cut the old window seal on the old Holden DH and I are doing up - after cutting back a wheel we used on the car with *drool* a noice drill. she's just...meek i guess. dont get me wrong i've tried to be 'friends' with them but since moving into the house DH and I are in now - things have 'stableised' as such. but since the birth of out boys have become less so. i'd never flat out say "nope they cant see them" as thats not fair on PIL, who have done so, so,so,so much for us. the only time i said that was after DJ was born they where NOT to come to the hospital as if felt slapped in the face from christmas prior. (who wouldn't if all you got was "do you know if its a boy or a girl" in four hours...) with vic i made no such comment. hell DH even managed to SMS them about the birth. but hey. i know now not to expect much.


in other less interesting news DH and I have talked about #3. it seems like a 'maybe' at this point as i felt, looking at our bed thismoring that a third little body would make it compleat. but we'll see. my urge to have a third is still strong :-/ but who knows once we start TT it may change, lol. but i think i'm nuts for wanting another...but the heart wants what the heart wants...