Wednesday, April 21, 2010

somedays are better then others.

today has been a middle of the road day.

went out with DH to the local shopping center with DJ. wondered around while he went to the miter 10 next door for some wood stuff for our new roller door. which wasnt too bad.

came home and cooked a roast Dunch - which is a mix of dinner and lunch as DH starts work at 4pm and finishs around 9:30-10 we have a late lunch early dinner. managed to not burn it - like last time thanks to DH moving the oven rack on me!

the "meh" part of today was mulling over how to deal with my folks. they've made alot of things alot harder on both DH and I. my mother is the worst offender at this as its about her and her feelings. even with regards to DJ. often making commets about "normal" this and "normal" that. when she has noo idea whats gone on behind closed doors to get him crawling (both 'normal' and deranged worm AKA commando) as the reflux was pritty bad until 10 months. also the constant comments about DJ not sitting alone. which he has done a few times now. just never at mum and dads *sniker* so i told DH how i will deal with this from here on in. i will treat them (well mainly my mum) as she is treated myself and DH. like a child. if she crosses a line i'll bring her up on it there and then. none of this hold back for her sake. its about time i think about MY sake, my SONs sake and DH's. its not healthy that she picks faults in DJ so often, when he becomes more awear of things it'll affect him. i know a life time of it has affected me, so if i can protect my son from it i will. i also feel that she thinks she can be more of a mother then a grandmother to him which has got my back up. im still simmering away after last week. and if any sort of heat is turned on well, then they can feel it. i've been very well contained about the whole thing - but now, now i can't be. i've got bundy in my belly and they need to condider that for once. she's my mother and needs to push away her feelings and think about mine. in other words take her own advice.

the best part about today was bundy kicking DJ while DJ and I had a snuggle, DJ had nooo idea what was happening but it was nice. once bundy is born i think they'll be close. i say that becuase DJ likes going BUBBUBBUB into my belly, bundy is now kicking back which is adorable. only another 11 weeks (if i go to 42 like i did with DJ) until bundy is earth side. then this really will become the nut house!

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