41+2 (or Term+9)

still here.
had a second S&S today. not much has changed. i went 11 days over with DJ.

i have an U/S tomorrow to check fluid and plasenter. then CTG in the arvo. which will be fun. thursday is an OB appt to go over the results and talk about the induction. really not keen on the last part. i'm GBS+ so braking my waters makes me feel a little uneasy but i'll do what i can. i hope they put the gel in and its enough to get me "going" if it comes to that.

Feeling good within myself though. although i will admit its getting hard to get in and out of the car now. and my shirts all ride up. but it's something im willing to smile about. i know that its not "forever" i look forward to the labour as strange as that sounds. the pain...its not a bad pain if i make much sense. its a working pain, the kind that feels in its own warped way good. the way i laboured with DJ was...just...the most out of control but the most control i think i've ever been. knowing that the normal thoughts where really outta whack the sub thoughts where all i needed. i sound strange typing it out. mmm...but its hard to explain. people ask after birth "did it hurt" and i can't help but say "yep, it did. but not in a bad kind of way. it was a working pain that bought DJ into the world and it was worth it"

now i just need to get bundy to do what i want IE DROP and POP and things will be swimming. not easy but they'll work out. some how.

i can't wait to find out if we'll have a little Carlton or a Little Krystal in our arms. thats the part im looking forward too most. (if it is a girl...it'll be a shock as every one thinks boy LOL)