its raining!

yay! rain. i like rain.
its meant to be like this all weekend. so its bad as i'll be stuck indoors but good seeing as well...it means DH will also be suck inside!

according to my theory i should infact go into labour this weekend. you see before i had DJ Mr President Obarma was swarn in to office (even though he had to re-take the oth due to the dumb guy doing the swearing in) and then DJ came into this world on the hottest day on record. so two massive things. then we have this week. Mr Rudd was over thrown as our PM - and our first "female prime minster" was sworn in. (and i have been doing alot of swearing about that myself) and this weekend is meant to be heavy rain all weekend. so if my theory is right (pfft like it is) bundy will come into this world this weekend....so i hope. as i'm currently sitting on 5 days 'post due' which while im enjoying it. im longing to find out if bundy is a boy or a girl (once again DH thinks yes, they are due to me trying to send a "girl" card to a cousin who had a BOY on monday) and just to start the whole family of four thing. well.. tectonically 6 as we consider our cats to be part of our family.

but we'll wait and see (what else can one do?) i have a midwife appt tomorrow to book in an induction - which i'll be telling them (nicely) will be done Sunday week (which will put me bang on 42 weeks) and NO earlier - unless they can tell me something is not 'right' IE my plasenter isn't working fully. they can kindly bugger off!

speaking of birth i keep thinking about how lucky i was/am to have had the birth i did with DJ. considering the labour (all up) was 31 hours i did well. with only Gas after 24. i was lucky that i had found BB to open my mind (and that of DHs and any one else who'd listen) to birth and the normality of it. none of this 12 hour crap. none of this "labour pains are not regular until...." or "after so meany hours its best to do ...." i read all i could from BB the birth storys the ones that where good bad and ugly. ones that left women impowered others that left them not so sure. strange as it sounds - i found the spirt of birth with in each and every one. they where all (and still are) such strong women to have birthed their babies, be it via the normal exit tunnel or via the French doors. they did it. and i for one am honored that they'd share it with me (and the world). i also found birth to be a deeply spiritual experance. i may have said it before but i have never felt so close to that fine line between this world and the next. to think that my body became the crack 'between the worlds' is a powerful thing. i can remember thinking about a wise women (spirit) in the room guiding my body though each contraction. showing my baby their way into this world. protecting both of us from harm and allowing the curton between this world and the next to be opened just enough to allow DJ into the world. i'm longing to have that happen again.

If this baby - bundy is a boy they'll have two middles names (as i do and DJ also). one is Victor the other Bruce so their full name will be Carlton Victor Bruce A____. the reson for two middle names is that they're both very important to me. my late grandfather - Victor was the only grand father i knew. a tall strong man who taught my father (who then tought me) that its not about where a person is comming from its where they're going. their history may not be a nicest but they very well could be. a lesson i want DJ (and bundy) to also understand and learn. Bruce was my late uncle. my fathers youngest brother who was taken from this world by cancer. he was a smoker so although not unexpected still makes it hard. he was also the nicest person and possably the cleanest michanic that i've ever known. he was a wonderful man who always had time for myself and my sister. he was also the "cool" uncle in the fact he drank and was rather funny - he showed up to my cousins wedding with out a tie. so what did he do? use the loo paper! needless to say my aunt (dads sister) was not impressed by this (but myself and my sister where, have you ever tried to tie loo paper as a tie??) and the Carlton well thats just a name DH likes. he named DJ (well out of the 4 names he has 1 of which being our surname DH picked two. DJ carries my maiden name as my father never had a son todo so. dispite the fact i was more tomboy then girly girl.

so hopefully this weekend bundy will come out. i think DH is miffed after the MW told us last week she thinks 8 and a half pounds worth of baby is going to come out of my vagina. hes worried that it wont happen. i'm worried it'll happen too fast and i'll end up birthing at home or worse...IN THE CAR hahah. not really. this bubba i think will be 8lb2oz. but we have another MW appt tomorrow.

come on bundy. time to come out...please? before i eat the entire stock of Choc-ripple biccies...